1:40
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: Angela Baker and My Obsession With Fire - Senses Fail
Topic: Make amends at the end
Now I'm getting SO annoyed at everybody. There is only one good thing about today -> I get to go to Catherine's house today! Whatever...

So mom said that (we made this deal) that Vince would go come at 1:45. Well at 4 am I was SOOO pissed off at her because, well look- he was still here!! Well she talked me into letting him stay because he's SO tired! Fuck her! At least I totally got bribed for it!

i just hate everbody right now!

Phrase: I light a Match to Start the fire
Last words: I thought I wanted this to happen

Fuck this life, Samara

11:23 PM
Mood:  sharp
Now Playing: Angela Baker and My Obsession With Fire - Senses Fail
Topic: I hate this
Now that i think about it, i want Catherine to know about me. It's really hart to just come out and say it, "I cut myself!" I'm still pissed off at Nicolette P. for what she said the other day during Gym.

My mind is just rishing around on SO many different things. The only thing i can say is -> Thank you Sophie! I seriosly just want to do it again...

I guess everything is okay with me and kristen because today in french we were talking. (Or should I say writing?)I don't even want to talk about it though, Thid makes me want to this even more because now I am REALLY pissed off.

My mom is with Vince again -> what a surprise! She keeps on obbsessing over gim. When she sayd she'll relax, or "chill-out" with Vince. He needs to go!

It;s just that everybody says they will be here for me -> and then they just leave. And all they ever do is LIE. I'm getting sick of thid twisted-messed up feeling. I wish i could just tell them, no ,wait, SHOW them what they are doing to me. Tortering me, or just doing nothing as I'm drowning. Fuck them!

I wish I could just drift away. Go to bed and never wake up. Leave this place. But then again, NO! If I left, I would be just like them. But this is seriosly so fucked up! Goodbye!

Phrase: I love the pain, I hate the pain!
Last words: Fuck you all!

Love, Samara
As i hate, Myself